Tonight we are having just a few people over for NYE. I have done probably 28 drunken, crazy, and yes fun, NYEs in my past. This was my party night! The night I lived for! Everyone was drinking as much as me and it was awesome! No one bailed early bc they all wanted to wait until midnight. I usually hosted huge parties that went all night so I didn't have to drive. Selfishly I gave little thought to whether or not people at my house could drive home. I made sure there were other kids over to play with my kids so I didn't feel guilty as a mom, but my drinking on this night was my priority and I didn't apologize for it. We have hosted plenty of 4:00 am parties where I either end up throwing up or passing out in bed only to wake up barely able to function looking at a trashed house.
I have also experienced four (two were bc of babies/pregnancies) so only two sober by choice NYE's. The first was in 2011. I was something like 4 days sober. I sat in my bed all by myself stressed out, having anxiety attacks, counting the minutes, blogging constantly and I did it! For the first time since I was 17. The second time was in 2012. I was something like 4-5 months sober. This time wasn't as hard bc I knew I could do it. Thanks to my blog, I can look at January 1 (or 2 or 3) and know whether I drank or not. I am either proud and sober or depressed and hungover.
Here are the two sober blogs from the years I didn't drink
2013, 2014, 2015 and 2016 I drank. These are the posts to prove to myself that I did not wake up int he new year feeling happy and relieved that I can drink and proud of myself.