Sunday, December 30, 2012
Was this me all along?
Tonight we went to my sister's house and played cards. We hadn't done that in a long time and not since I stopped drinking. OMG - I had a fantastic time! Others were drinking and I was not. I was silly, a little loud, laughed a ton, was kind of a goofball and I WAS SOBER!! If I would have been drinking, I would have been worried when we left (or at 3 AM when I woke up in an anxiety attack) about what everyone else was thinking, worried I looked like an idiot, worried if anyone had noticed how much I drank and probably felt crappy tomorrow. Now, I left thinking, "Wow maybe I really am a fun, goofy person that can make people laugh even without the alcohol!" I had no regrets, no wondering, no guilt and I will feel great tomorrow. My dear son said I acted the same as when I was drinking except my eyes didn't look funny and I didn't sound different (slurring). My family even joked that I better lay off the seltzer water! Being sober ROCKS!