Friday, January 9, 2015

1/9/15 (Fri) My Friday Voice Did Not Win

It is 9:45 pm and I am sober :)  My daughter came over, I made a really nice dinner and we watched Parenthood.  We have been watching that since the beginning.  It has been our thing.  We love it!  It was so sad tonight. She was crying, I was crying, my dh was crying a little bit and my 16 yo ds just looks at us and says, "Yeah, this show looks fun!"

It really wasn't hard tonight.  I was pretty tired from work, it was cold outside and it wasn't sunny (the sun is a MAJOR trigger for me).  When I got home, instead of grabbing for that beer, I made myself a snack and let myself sit down and relax for a minute.  I would say that drinking helps me relax but I don't think it ever did.  Alcohol just winds me up.  It makes me want to socialize, to talk, to get together with the neighbors.  And I never just sit down.  I do make a pretty good hostess at parties, but it can be exhausting.

Anyway, I had my snack, made dinner, had a nice evening with my family and am going to bed early. And I feel really good :)


  1. Good job! I nice cup of hot tea winds me down. You just gotta find a new thing.

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  3. I am SO happy you didn't drink last night! I am new to the blog world and I wrote a comment to you last night encouraging you to tough it out and to enjoy your family. When I tried to post it - it just disappeared and I was too tired to re-write the whole thing again! I think I have figured out how to actually post this - So Good Job and keep up the fight. I am 45 days sober. I posted my first blog last week under If you want to read it you will be the first one! I'll be checking on you and rooting you on! Life is sooo much better sober and obsession free!
    Take Care - Mama Sue

  4. Thanks you guys! Hey Mamma Sue - thanks for the words of encouragement. I tried to go to your blog but it said I had to have permission, but it didn't give me any place to ask for that?

    1. Ok, so try again - I think I fixed the problem. Like I said I am new to this. I am also trying to figure out how to get a list of what blogs I follow on the side of my page. Oh, well, I'll figure it out eventually. thanks!

  5. Yyyyyaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy!!! So happy you defeated that lying bitch!