Wednesday, July 26, 2017
7/26/17 (Wed) If only...
I have kept track of my weight over the years and it has climbed from 125 to 150. I decided enough is enough an I need to lose 20 pounds so I can get out of my yoga pants and into all of the clothes that used to fit me in my closet. I think that if I can do this, it will really improve my mood.
When I went back and looked at my weight history, I noticed that in December of 2012 I weighed around 127 pounds. I thought, "I wonder if that was in the middle of my 255 days of sobriety time." I checked my blog and sure enough, I had been sober 4 months at that time. I continued to stay sober until April and then decided to try drinking again. At first I did pretty well but by July of 2013, I was back to drinking too much most weekends and had gained 10 of those pounds back. That was 5 years ago.
If only I had stayed the course and remained sober 5 years ago, imagine how good I would feel (and look) now.
I am turning 50 (yikes - I thought that only happened to everyone else) in 6 months.
I am not going to say, "If only I had stayed sober last summer, worked out, ate well and taken care of myself I would have looked and felt amazing on my birthday."
I am going to say, "Thank goodness I stayed the course, remained sober, worked out, ate well and took care of myself for the last six months. I feel (and look) better than I have in a long time."