AM - I haven't posted in a while. Why? I am fine. I don't have a problem. Just obsessing too much. Went on vacation, drank every day, only had one HO, didn't fight with any of my family, progress - right? ...... Let's start calling it what it is - denial, rationalization, addiction, an unhappy life controlled by a drug that has ruined may people in my family and will soon ruin me if I don't open my eyes!
PM - Not good. I was making dinner, talking to a friend on the phone, bored, asked her to come over. Three bottles of wine later (1:00 in the morning) I finally fell into bed. I remember hearing a little voice in my head say, "School is almost ready to start ..... it is OK ..... one last party before the summer is over ..."
That is exactly the little voice, that is more like a roar, that I am SICK OF LISTENING TO!!! It is always some reason, some excuse, some event. SHUT UP!!!!!
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