This sucks! I can't get any sleep - night sweats, heart doing summersaults in my chest, rapid heart rate, overwhelming anxious feelings that come and go, feel like my head gets a sudden amount of pressure like is is going to blow up, headaches!!!!!! When will it stop? I have not drank for 3 days. I need some rest! I didn't even drink that much, for pete's sake - 2,3,4 times a week/2,3,4 drinks usually/5,6,7 drinks 3-4 times a month - and only beer and wine!
For many years I have not thought that I am alcohol dependent. I am now starting to see that every time I do a 3,4,5 day abs I feel like sh*t. I can't sleep, anxious, restless, irritated, heart racing, insides shaking, hot flashes/night sweats, etc. I have come to realize after about 10 years of symptoms (20 years of drinking) - that I do not have the flu, anxiety, stress, irritation kids/husband/family members, menopause, depression, etc. Since the only thing that makes me get relief from these symptoms - after 2,3,4,5 days is alcohol - I am ALCOHOL DEPENDENT! I am may not be a raging alcoholic, but I am most definitely alcohol dependent. My 2,3,4,5 glasses of wine 2,3,4,5 times a week have changed (IMHO) my body chemistry. That scares me because, from what I understand, this can be a problem that gets progressively worse for someone like me that has "the addictive gene".
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