I am a 50 year old wife, teacher and mother of 2. I have a 19 year old son and a 23 year old daughter. I am fighting this damn drug called alcohol. I have been a weekend binge drinker for 30 years. I binge 2-3 times a month on a Friday or Saturday, but alcohol kicks my butt every single day of my life. I am sick of it!
Monday, August 15, 2011
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Ok so two big steps today. One I shared with my DH all of my struggles over the last year at mm (really over the last 25 years). He doesn't think I have a prob but supports the fact that I think I have one. That's a little scary since I don't want him to judge me or think badly of me. Two. Ironically. After I got done crying my eyes out to him. Our dear friends texted us about going to one of our favorite places to sit in the sun for a beer. Normally - no question. For about 30 minutes - struggled with the choice - I could just start Monday with my 30. Cried in the shower while I was arguing with myself. Declined the invitation. I am sure it would have gotten me out of this emotional funk but I am also sure it wouldn't have made me feel any better tomorrow. One of my fav quotes is "what we are tomorrow is based on the choices we make today". Me - 1. Alcohol - 0.