I DID IT!!!! I got through cooking an amazing Christmas dinner for 16 people (crazy, drinking, family members) without drinking. I don't know if I have ever done that in my adult life other than the year I was pregnant. It was a little weird. The anticipation and build up was actually worse than the event. While making the shopping list, out shopping and beginning to cook I felt terrible. I had a major mental struggle going on in my head.
On the one hand I was thinking, "This is just going to suck. I don't even want to do it. I just wish every one would cancel. I am not going to be able to look forward to everything again. I will just start tomorrow. I shouldn't be attempting this during the holidays. what am I going to say of anyone bugs me."
On the other hand, I was thinking, "Are you kidding me!!! I haven't even gone 2 days and I am already trying to convince myself. This about how incredibly proud you will be about yourself. It is just another 24 hours. No big deal just get through it."
I honestly felt like I was having an anxiety attack for about 3 hours because of the anticipation of not being able to drink. Then, once everyone started getting here, I just kept busy, tried not to think about it and just focussed on the cooking.
The most amazing part was that NO ONE SAID ANYTHING ABOUT IT!!!! I DON'T THINK ANYONE EVEN NOTICED!!!!! I am shocked!!!
WOW that's one HUGE step you took! How very strong you are, to manage through that battle AND deal with the Christmas dinner at the same time.
ReplyDeleteGood going girl!