Sunday, December 25, 2011
Why am I so afraid of taking that step of total sobriety? I am so afraid that life is just going to suck without alcohol. I look forward to having a couple drinks when it comes to anything special going on - holidays, get togethers, birthdays, vacations, weekends. It has just been a part of me for so long. Nothing seems like it will be as fun or enjoyable anymore and I won't have anything to wait for, to look forward to. I know it sounds stupid, but did you guys once feel like this? What did you tell yourself to get over those feelings? I know, I know, I know - life is great for all of you now....but it is not for me...I want to be completely abstinate but I just can't imagine never being able to have that part of my life again.