Saturday, December 3, 2011
Outer me vs. inner me
I read this "morning blessing" and thought about what I truly want in my heart (sobriety) and the conflict I seem to be having with this when it comes to the "outer" me. There is the me who wants to stay home, be calm and peaceful. There is also the me that wants to still connect with people (that has always meant with alcohol in the past), go out, have fun, be part of the group, not feel left out or different. Right now I can't do both - it is either one or the other. I know it will come - but right now it is a struggle.