I did not drink last night - yeah! I just didn't feel like it. Of course still feeling lethargic from my binge on Wednesday probably helped.
I have mixed feeling about the next two days (actually week bc we also have 2 birthdays and new years in the mix and another Christmas when my sister gets back):
On the one hand - I don't want to drink. When I quit for 9 months a couple of years ago, it included the holidays. I know I can do it and I know in the end it will be a much better two weeks if I don't drink at all. Also, one of me biggest triggers (sister) is out of town this year so that will definitely help. I really like drinking with her. Very quite this year. Only having around 6 people over tonight and 7 tomorrow. I do not feel the need to impress any of these people (either I don't care what they think or they are over so often it doesn't matter) with the spotless house, or a perfectly cooked 4 course meal.
On the other hand - I know I am stopping January 1 for at least 30 days, so I might as well have a few now. I will be cooking both days and that is also a huge trigger for me.....
Maybe I just won;t try to figure it all out right this very minute and take it minute by minute...hour by hour...day by day...
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