What am I grateful for?

Let's see - what am I grateful for (on terms of my issues with alcohol) :

1.  The mmabsers list - which keeps gently reminding me the peace and joy that comes from sobriety

2.  The mm list which got me to this place to begin with

3.  Some personal friends I have made here (you know who you are) who are always checking in on me

4.  I haven't ever been in trouble with the law when it comes to my drinking.

5.  I haven't ever had the official "shakes", vomiting, seizures that come from full on physical withdrawal

6.  I haven't lost anyone I love because of my personal struggles

7.  I don't ever drink when I first get up to help with withdrawals

8.  My family doesn't now that I struggle this much with my addiction

9.  No one at my work know I struggles with this obsession
10.  Everyone still loves me and basically thinks I am a good person

11.   I still have the respect of my husband, daughter and son

12.   I am healthy despite the toxin I keep putting in my body

13.   I still have the ability to fight the fight.

I look at this list and it seems to be a list of potential disasters (#4 - #13) that could change my life forever if I don't get this under control.  That is a little scary.