I am a 50 year old wife, teacher and mother of 2. I have a 19 year old son and a 23 year old daughter. I am fighting this damn drug called alcohol. I have been a weekend binge drinker for 30 years. I binge 2-3 times a month on a Friday or Saturday, but alcohol kicks my butt every single day of my life. I am sick of it!
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
What is your plan now?
Someone asked me this question. Someone else told me to save my response for later.
What is your plan now? I am not sure (just being honest). Are you quitting, or are you drinking a few on the weekends and none on weekdays? For sure none on the weekdays. We will see on the weekends. I really just want to perm abs. I told myself - one more HO and I was done - it was proof I couldn't control it. How is it working for you? Thanksgiving break was an epic fail! Look at my abstar - it is disgusting! Fell back into my own miserable patterns.Drank wine! Wine is terrible for me. For sure no more wine - ever! I feel like I want to try to moderate one more time just once or twice a week but with only beer. Then again - one more HO and I am done! (As I am typing this there is a little voice in my head saying, "What is it going to take - one more abusive incident and you could have things happen that could change your life forever! Why risk it!" ) I have been thinking a lot about what you guys say about giving the absing some time so I can actually think more clearly about it. I am strongly considering doing a 30 (at least). I have not gone 30 days in 22 years (except when pregnant and when I quit smoking - I quit drinking for 6 months because it was the only way I could quit smoking)