I went back and checked my abstar row. I have been counting since March 2010. I have only had 10 sober Saturdays in that much time and they were usually followed by a binge on Fridays - too HO to drink.
I love being able to go back and look at my numbers. I am getting better at not drinking during the week - In April 2010 I only had 1 day that I could put in a 0! I now abs 3-5 days a week regularly. However, my problem has always been binge drinking on the weekends. It is interesting that as my daily numbers crept up - my bingeing decresed - probably supplying my body with a constant stream of alc kept my addiction happy. As I have gotten my daily numbers under control - my bingeing has gotten worse followed by excruciating HOs. I think my body works so hard to clear itself of the toxins during the week that 1- it is in all out craving/panic mode by the time Friday comes (which leads to a binge) and 2 - it just can't handle that much alco being thrown back into the system at one time. My body is tired of fighting this toxin.
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