From October 29

So let me get this right.  Are you saying that I am not a loser, a failure, weak, wishy-washy?  Are you saying that I may have a disease that I am powerless against IF I CHOSE TO DRINK?  That I will never be able to control it, never be able to drink like other people?  Never be able to have a beer in the sunshine?  Never be able to have a glass of wine with spicy spaghetti sauce? But I used to - I haven't always been like this.  I had a few years when I hardly drank anything.  I had a few years where I drank normally.  Are you saying that I can't ever get that back?  Are you saying that the only true power I have is when I chose to give it up forever?