Thanksgiving cont.

I can't figure out why I feel so out of it, down, exhausted, depressed, weird.  I went to my abstar number.  I had drank 5 beers in the first 17 days of November.  I have had 25 drinks (much of what has been wine) in the last 6 days!  That probably explains it.  I feel so down (not really a physical hangover - just down in the dumps) that I have "faked" bring sick with my dd (who really is sick) to not go to the family dinner.  I sent my dh and ds without us.  I am just so freaked out about wine being there and I DON"T WANT TO DRINK!!!!