Friday was a group meeting and I didn't get a whole lot out of it. It was about regaining trust again in relationships that have been destroyed bc of drinking. That doesn't really apply to me and we have a new member who also really likes to share his stories. He isn't arrogant or in denial like the 5 dui guy but he definitely monopolizes the conversation and now him and the dui guy (who are the same age) start talking about music and AA and when they were young.....it gets a little boring.
My struggle to today is my lack of a pink cloud. The first couple of times I stayed sober for a month, I was riding high with such good feelings and strong motivation. The more times I have stayed sober for a month (what is this like the 10th time), the less of a pink cloud I have. I am tried, lazy, unmotivated, uninspired, a bit depressed and for the first time since I started, don't feel like going tomorrow....just getting a little burned out. Oh well...hopefully it will pass.
Hello! I found your link on MM and find your blog quite relatable. I am in my mid-fifties and a just retired teacher. I am on day 7 of my sobriety journey right now. I too felt SOOO much anxiety when drinking, even when sticking to my limits on certain days. I am committed to making this my new normal so that I can really enjoy my retirement! I am proud of you for going to your group. I just rely on mmabsers and a few podcasts for now. Thanks for sharing your journey! Keep the faith! We CAN do this!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks! I am really scared about retiring. I know that I need to get a great deal of sobriety under my belt before that happens. Congrats on your retirement...glad you are doing well in your sobriety.
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ReplyDeleteJust keep doing what you are doing. There are many things that sort of suck, but in the end are useful.
Hopefully you are gaining tools to use for the rest of your life.
You are doing so well!
I hear ya...just keep on keeping on
DeletePlease go to group tomorrow. I find your blog to be very inspiring and I'm learning a lot from you. Going on 6 months AF (do not like the word sobriety) I'm feeling rather flat and boring myself. No pink cloud or excitement anymore. But I think this is all part of the process that we have to wade through to get to the other side. When I read blogs like Anne and Wendy's I have hope that joyfulness will return in good time. We just have to keep going and pushing through one day at a time. God bless! x
ReplyDeleteI am right there with you. Just gotta wait until we get to the other side and I also get a lot of inspiration from people like Wendy and Anne who are there and feel great.
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