Tuesday, June 20, 2017

6/20/17 (Tues) Struggling...still

I am sitting her in AK half way through my vacation.  I have drank the last four nights and have woken up all four mornings feeling crappy - terrible stomach ache (every time I drink), tired and depressed.

Physically, my stomach hurts, gassy, bloated

Physically, I look - bloated, swollen, overweight, tired

Mentally/Emotionally, I feel - depressed, anxious, sad

Do I want to spend the rest of my vacation feeling this way or do I want to choose different right now, today? Why wait until tomorrow, or when I get home, or after summer is over or after the next vacation in July or ...or....or...or....

There is always going to be a reason to drink.

The way I feel is a reason to not drink.

How about I try it different this time...who cares I am half way through my vacation.  Why not now? Why not today? Why not try to feel better today...not next week....next month...next year....why not now?


  1. Why not? Go for it! I just read a blog a few minutes ago written by someone who was newly sober and contemplating a trip to Napa Valley. She'd been before and had good memories of the wine tours, but, as she said, the reason she was quitting drinking wasn't because of the good memories. k, if you keep drinking are you going to have any good memories of this trip to take home? What if you quit? Will you have some then? If you want to call me and talk or get together when you get back, pm me.

  2. I quit on election day (the day of Mr Trump) It was pure coincidence as I am here in NZ and wasn't really following any of the election stuff. Usually busy drinking anyway.
    But now I have this "day" which for some reason sort of binds me to the US.
    This could be your moment - your vacation could be the turning point.
    Sending much positive reinforcement, because we all need it so much.
    Michelle xx

  3. I've been waking up sober recently, and it is much better. Make the choice that is right for you.

  4. Now is a perfect time. Sometime you just have to do what you know is right for you.