Want vs. Like 4/3/18

I was watching a video by Annie Grace (This Naked Mind) last night and she was talking about the difference between wanting vs liking alcohol. I found it very interesting bc I think what she is saying is so true for me.

At the beginning of my drinking career, I wanted to drink and I liked it. I had fun while drinking. I laughed, it gave me energy, I did silly things while drinking with friends my friends - it was a really good time for quite a few years.

I never thought about it before, but I don't think this is the case anymore.  I do still want to drink, but I don't think I actually like it anymore. I started thinking about the last year or so - after I have that beer or glass of wine I can honestly say that I really don't like the feeling anymore. I really don't like the "out of it" way I feel when buzzed. It makes me super tired, less able to focus on the present moment and actually kind of yucky - not to mention the aftereffects of stomach aches, insomnia, heart palpitations, anxiety and depression. I can honestly say with 100% certainty that I like the feeling of being sober better than the feeling of being buzzed. I don't think it is about actually liking it while I am drinking anymore. It is more about wanting it. Wanting the the anticipation of drinking. Curing the worry about events not being enjoyable without it.

It's pretty interesting to think about. I "want" something that I don't even "like" anymore. If I didn't like chicken anymore and it made me sick, I would stop eating it. Drugs suck! They are so self destructive. They make you crave something that is making you miserable.