Monday, August 24, 2015
Glimmer of hope
I do feel like every time I go through this type of hangover, it does serve a purpose. It pushes me a little closer to giving it up altogether. I see that light down the road, I just can't seem to get to it. Its more like I feel it down there - calling to me - pulling at my heart. I am 47 yo and sometimes I wonder what my purpose is? What is my message to the world? What will be my legacy? What kind of a difference can I make? Maybe sobriety could be it. I could be the inspiration for my family and friends that it can be done with grace, dignity and joy. That I could be completely sober and be at peace, grateful and full of love. Sometimes I truly believe in my heart that the light way down there is where I will eventually wind up. I guess the question is how many ditches do I have to climb out of before I make it? That, I guess, is only for me to decide.