Thursday, January 9, 2014
Party invitations!
I was leaving school today, and my fiends yelled across the parking lot, "Are you going to go to the holiday party tomorrow after school?" I said no. They looked disappointed. This makes me a little sad. I love to feel included and wanted and I know we could and would have a great time - it has happened many times in the past. There was a little voice inside my head that said, "Go ahead, no one would now. You don't need to explain yourself to you blog readers of your online support group. Who cares? It would be fun - like old times." It made me a little sad because I don't want to drink, and I don't want to go if I can't drink. Urghhh
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Hhhmmm.. for me I just couldn't bear the thought of feelings like I was miserably missing out on everything like you obviously did when you said no to your friends.. so for me it was really thinking and retraining my brain to see that I could do absolutely everything exactly the same as before but my glass would happen to not have alcohol in it. It takes practice but this is what can be done.. yes sometimes the night ends a little flatly but for me most of the time I just do stuff the same and feel happy and laughy and it's all ok. give it a try more and more often and you'll start to see that the alcohol doesn't make that holiday party what it is.. it's the camaraderie, friends, jokes, silly talk, not being at work etc etc that makes it what it is. xxxx
ReplyDeleteThat is exactly were I want to be - doing everything I always did but without the alcohol. I am ok with it being a little boring, I just can't stand being so uncomfortable and awkward - it is a new and strange feeling for me.
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