Saturday, August 4, 2012
Day 4 of withdrawals
I think I feel a little better today. A little shaky but my heart was not doing flip flops inside my chest when I woke up so that is progress. I think I actually did get some sleep last night, which also helps. I don't ever want to go through this withdrawal stuff again. It has become so much more than just - haha I have a hangover. It it now a 4-5 day ordeal of feeling really weird and crappy. This time really scared me bc I was home alone the whole time (which was good bc I didn't have to make any excuses) but what if something bad would have happened in which I needed medical attention. I have heard stories before of binge drinkers thinking they are just having a hangover and end up with a seizure 3 days later. I DO NOT want my body to get to the point that it needs this G**D*** drug so bad that it has seizures when I stop. My heart had been doing such weird things the last few days that it hurt when I went to bed last night. I bumped my knee a few days ago on a table and I now have a bruise on my leg that is three inches wide. Wait I just looked at it to see how big it was and it is gone. Is that possible? Not drinking for 4 days would help my bruise? I cut a cuticle and it bleeds like crazy. I know I am a worry wort but am I causing long term damage to my liver? I need to stop taking my physical body for granted and treat it the way it deserves - cherished.