Thursday, January 12, 2012
Day 18 - Feeling Frustrated!!!!
Today I have this overwhelming sense of - This is dumb! I really want a glass of wine. I am home alone tonight....no one would even know. Why did I have to go and tell all of my family! Now I can't drink a beer during the game Saturday. I can't/don't want to go out with friends Saturday night...Everything just sucks...I shouldn't have told any one....I don't know if want to scream or cry...
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Hang on!!
ReplyDeleteIf you really want to quit drinking, you're going to have to get through times like this - it's just part of the deal. Each time gets better - it really does. You can do it. Reach out, call someone. It's actually good you told your family. You'll see.
As cliched as it sounds, don't give up before the miracle happens.
If we out here can do it, you can too!
:)
I understand you fully! Not too many days ago I thought basically the same thoughts. I picture it as us having a tiny little devil (alcohol) sitting on one shoulder, whispering in your ear - tempting and seductive, oh what a relief it would be to have innocent glass of wine. But you have also the tiny little angel (sobritey) sitting on your other shoulder whispering promises of a beautiful life in sobriety. That voice is right now deafened by that little devil.
ReplyDeleteAnd you KNOW that it's not about just that one glass or two, it's a downward spiral that will take you right back to 18 days ago, to feeling so very bad again. You don't deserve that, you are worth so incredibly more. There is so much more to life...
Accept your craving, understand it and be kind to yourself. Of course you'd like a beer or some wine, you're an alcoholic! Perhaps you can get busy doing something, to silent the voice of the vicious lil' devil. The alcohol needs to be replaced by [something]... go out for a looong walk? Take a wonderful relaxing bath? Listen go relaxing music? Go to the cinema!
Hang in there ksusier dearest *hugs*