Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Day 10 PM

Today I decided that I have only one New Year's Resolution.  That is to not to drink.  I am kind of an all or nothing kind of person. On January 1st,  I had decided I was not going to drink, go to the gym, eat healthy and go to bed early.

Well, I slept terrible last night and did not make it to the gym.  I started feeling down on myself for not going.  I don't think those feelings are going to help me remain sober.

I decided my first and foremost goal would be to not drink.  If I go to the gym, awesome!  If not, it's OK - you didn't drink!  If I eat healthy - awesome! If I eat some ice cream - well at least I didn't drink.  If I get to bed early - awesome!  If not (because I am up late reading all of the recovery literature) - at least I didn't drink.

I read somewhere that I need to put as much energy into my absing as I did into my drinking and then my attempting to moderate.  I  know all of those other things are good for me and will help my health and sense of well being - but not if I am going to beat myself up every time I am not perfect.

The only thing that needs to be perfect right now is my sobriety.

1 comment:

  1. Great post. Trying to do it all is always my biggest downfall. Choosing one good goal is healthy. Progress, not perfection.

    Thanks for sharing.