I am beginning to see that as long as I didn't call myself an "alcoholic", I was giving myself permission to keep trying to moderate. My father was a "true alcoholic" (LOL). He did lose his family, job (I went to 7 elementary schools bc we had to keep moving), did get a dui, was in jail, did call my mom crying for her to come get him out swearing it would be the last time, did run over more than one mailbox with his daughters in the back seat, did make promises over and over to her and to us that once we moved it would be different and he would stop, did almost die, did remarry another alcoholic who shot herself while they were both drinking on antibuse (?).....
As long as I wasn't that, I could still try to moderate. I think this perception what has been keeping me stuck...
Do I really need the validation of all of the bad stuff before I finally admit I have a problem and need to stop?
gulp. that's one hell of a backstory. do you need to go there before you stop? Hell no. yikes, who wants that crummy, lost life. better to be in control of your own destiny than watching it rain down on you in the form of despair, death and broken promises... this post is a postcard snapshot of what to AVOID like the plague ...
ReplyDeleteA lot of alcohol addicts don't wanna admit they got a problem and they don't want to search for help at friends and family, but when are you an addict? that is the question for alot of addicts.
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