After I wrote about how great sobriety was and how great I felt yesterday, I did not have a good day but I did learn a couple of things. My husband and I got in a "fight" right after I posted how great I felt. This "fight" brought up a lot of horrifying memories from my past that I would just rather not deal with. In the end we are Ok, but I had anxiety all day. You'd have thought I had a hangover. I was surprised that the anxiety all of these memories were causing me was very similar to the anxiety that a hangover causes me. I had the same heart palpitations, exhaustion, depression, panicky feeling that I would have with a hangover. It took a couple of hours for it to calm down and then I was exhausted the rest of the day.
The one difference is that I don't still fee it this morning. It was not drug induced so I don't have to worry about waiting for it to clear my system. There is no doubt in my mind now that alcohol is causing a great deal of my anxiety bc it felt exactly the same way.
I am thankful that I didn;t also have a hangover on top of the "fight". It would have made it just that much worse.
I'm sorry you had a fight with the hubs but glad that you pulled so much good stuff out of the experience. Weird how that happens.
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Anxiety is such a horrible thing. Especially when you are feeling good. I find the shock of disagreement or problems hardest when I am feeling good. My all or king kicks in.
ReplyDeleteNurture yourself. The post drinking anxiety lasts for quite a while. PAWS can be an issue for a year.
yoga has saved my life. And when my anxiety gets really bad I take GABA. You can buy it at the grocery store and it calms . It's worth trying.
anne
Hi. Just checking in to see how it's going over here. I hope your anxiety has settled. xo
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