This was what I wrote on Day 8 3 YEARS AGO!!! I can't believe three years later I am still dealing with the same BS.
Finally! I slept well last night and finally woke up feeling good, ready to take on the day. 8 days - it took 8 days since my last binge to finally start feeling better and sleeping! I think I am now officially physically done with alcohol. Now it is time to "get my armor on" to take on the mental battle of what is to come! I need to remember - I can have a relaxing, productive, self preserving, proud, happy weekend. It may not be the "fun" that I am used to, but I am not willing to suffer all of the consequences for that kind of "fun." I need to redefine "fun."
This one was from 4 year ago!!!
This sucks! I can't get any sleep - night sweats, heart doing summersaults in my chest, rapid heart rate, overwhelming anxious feelings that come and go, feel like my head gets a sudden amount of pressure like is is going to blow up, headaches!!!!!! When will it stop? I have not drank for 3 days. I need some rest! I didn't even drink that much, for pete's sake - 2,3,4 times a week/2,3,4 drinks usually/5,6,7 drinks 3-4 times a month - and only beer and wine!
Kinda ridiculous I am still dealing with this! This is exactly why I blog....so I can go back and see how stupid this all is and how much of my energy it is taking up.
Isn't it crazy to go back and read that stuff? There are times I'm actually afraid to go back and read the really old posts. It's a little cringe-worthy.
ReplyDeleteBut it's smart and you're smart (and brave) for going back through those old posts.
Sherry