Monday, October 5, 2015
Anxiety - not such a great day after all
After I wrote about how great sobriety was and how great I felt yesterday, I did not have a good day but I did learn a couple of things. My husband and I got in a "fight" right after I posted how great I felt. This "fight" brought up a lot of horrifying memories from my past that I would just rather not deal with. In the end we are Ok, but I had anxiety all day. You'd have thought I had a hangover. I was surprised that the anxiety all of these memories were causing me was very similar to the anxiety that a hangover causes me. I had the same heart palpitations, exhaustion, depression, panicky feeling that I would have with a hangover. It took a couple of hours for it to calm down and then I was exhausted the rest of the day.
The one difference is that I don't still fee it this morning. It was not drug induced so I don't have to worry about waiting for it to clear my system. There is no doubt in my mind now that alcohol is causing a great deal of my anxiety bc it felt exactly the same way.
I am thankful that I didn;t also have a hangover on top of the "fight". It would have made it just that much worse.