Friday, October 9, 2015

Weekend



I am going to be real here and say that tonight might be difficult.  I have had one hell of a week.  I have worked 60 hours this week because we had conferences.  I meet with 34 sets of parents (one conference every 15 minutes) for two days and I am utterly exhausted!  It is Friday, my room is a disaster and I am not ready for next week.  And.....the sun is supposed to be shining this afternoon. Anyone who knows me, knows that is a HUGE trigger for me! I am on day 13 and I don't want to drink, but  I am also not in denial that I may feel differently at 3:00 this afternoon.  I am going to really try to keep a positive mind about it.

My mantra is going to be,

"I would rather be sober." 

I want to enjoy what I am doing, even if that means sitting in the sun or on the couch, fully present and sober.  I want to wake up the next two mornings without a hangover, not feeling guilty, feeling really proud of myself, clear headed, ready to take on the things that I need to get done. I want to wake up Monday morning ready to face the new week rested and positive.

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  1. If you want it...then do it. You know you can. As Yoda says, "Do or do not, there is no try." (Or some shit like that.)

    I know you can do this. You know you can do this. Now just do it. Get a glass of something fizzy and non-alcoholic and go sit in the sun. The sun is no different. It's still there shining and giving us vitamin D. Go be aware of it. Enjoy it. Don't try to numb yourself from it.

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    1. I love - the sun is still the same!

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