Saturday, May 19, 2018
5/19/18 - Not blogging for awhile
I am going to take a break from blogging for awhile...not because I am drinking...just bc I have become a bit obsessive about it. I feel like it is keeping me either stuck in this place of analyzing the past, comparing it to the present or worrying about the future. Last June I spent 3-4 hours a day reading The 30 Day Solution and blogging about it. While I think that was valuable time spent, there is part of me that felt like I was just wasting my summer sitting in my study on my computer while my house remained dirty, the weeds overtook my yard and I did not get any closer to being in the physical shape I want. the fact that I am 20 pounds overweight, eat kinda crappy and spend far too much time in front of my computer or TV is making me insecure, overly sensitive and kinda grumpy all the time. While I am on the path of not drinking, my focus needs to be on something else this summer. I need to be physically active. Blogging, analyzing, reading, researching, sitting is not going to get me there. I need to repaint my house, clean out every closet, keep up with my yard work and start taking care of myself physically. I fully realize that none of this will happen if I spend my summer drinking. I will blog every week or so just to keep track of were I am mentally, but I just can't spend another summer stuck in my head while everything around me gets ignored.