Yesterday actually went well in all regards except one...I drank...not a lot but still...
My mom came over and we actually had a good time. I don't know what was different but she actually acted like she wanted to be at my house and there was no drama.
I am not super happy with myself for drinking but I do think that I have figured out that my family (sisters and mother) are a trigger for me to drink. I don't know if it is out of habit, or because it helps me cope with the stress of worrying about drama, or if it an avoidance strategy so I don't have to deal with my feelings.
Regardless, drinking whenever I am around them is still allowing them to control my behavior. I am still working on it.
I haven't failed until I have given up, right???
You HAVE NOT FAILED AT ALL!! Keep going. You know what your triggers are - now for a practical (kind) strategy that you can live with. xxx
ReplyDeleteYou have not failed.
ReplyDeleteI am with Wine Bitch.
Now find the strategies that can help you!
And be very kind to yourself!
xo
Wendy
That's right, chica! The only failure is in giving up. You never have and I don't think you ever will-so why don't you just say, "I'm done playing this game." Do it. I double dog dare you! Come on...talk about one upping those sisters of yours. Yes, they are your triggers, I think I might have mentioned that.
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