Monday, May 9, 2016
Better than I thought
Yesterday actually went well in all regards except one...I drank...not a lot but still...
My mom came over and we actually had a good time. I don't know what was different but she actually acted like she wanted to be at my house and there was no drama.
I am not super happy with myself for drinking but I do think that I have figured out that my family (sisters and mother) are a trigger for me to drink. I don't know if it is out of habit, or because it helps me cope with the stress of worrying about drama, or if it an avoidance strategy so I don't have to deal with my feelings.
Regardless, drinking whenever I am around them is still allowing them to control my behavior. I am still working on it.
I haven't failed until I have given up, right???