Sunday, May 3, 2015

Just hangover ramblings.....

I don't know if I can do this. I don't know if I can control it.  I don't know if it is worth it to keep trying.  I tell myself every weekend that I will do better the next weekend, that I will have more control, maybe not even drink at all. Then the weekend comes and I just can't seem to stop once I start.  Friday I had one beer and three glasses of wine - a little tired yesterday.  Last night I had 3 beers and 3 glasses of wine and I feel like hell today.  I know that this week will be filled with depression, anxiety and insomnia until about Thursday.  I am also becoming more sensitive, mouthy, judgmental, hyper, irritable, loud and grumpy again now that I went back to my weekend drinking.  Is the need to be accepted and fit in socially worth it - or am I just making excuses to drink because that is really what I want to do - drink - because I am addicted........

This all just sucks!  It sucks to drink and it sucks not to drink!


  1. Exactly! Now you just need to get to it sucks more to drink than not! It sounds like you're getting there. Best to you.

  2. That about sums it up. You can stay on this carnival ride and be miserable ALL of the time or you can get off, be miserable for a little while and then be happy forever.

    It's all up to you. IMHO, you're worth the effort.


  3. It doesn't suck not to drink. That's the part you just can't know until you try.
    But addiction is a hard thing to overcome. Find help. It's worth the effort.