Wednesday, March 30, 2016
3/30/16 (Wed) Has my flame gone out?
Yes....My flame is barely a flicker. Every time I drink excessively I feel like my wick barely even has a bit of smoke coming off of it. I takes me 4 days to get it back to a low burning level where I actually want to participate in my pwn life. My BIGGEST problem is that when I finally start feeling better (which happens to be the next weekend - welcome to the world of a weekend binge drinker), that is exactly when I feel like drinking again. Why do I time and time and time again forget how lousy I feel after drinking and how long it takes to recover? I am not a stupid person - I have a masters degree, am a teacher of 20 years, have a loving family, a nice house and great friends. Why can't I figure out how to stop the insanity. Scratch that...I know how to stop the insanity....the real question is....why don't I?