Sunday, February 11, 2018

Week 6 - Celebrations and Struggles 2/11/18

Week 6!

Celebrations - I am just plugging along sober, learning how to do weekends differently.  I am really not having any cravings. For the first time in a long time, being sober feels like the new normal.  I really don't even think about it and when I do - don't want it.  We went to the Melting Pot for my birthday yesterday. I had a no-hito which was delirious!  I think that I have so many months and different experiences being sober under my belt now that it is getting easier. I did the Melting Pot sober a couple of years ago. That time was extremely stressful and I was so mad I couldn't drink. But I didn't and it was fine, so this time I new I could do it and didn't even want to drink. The more experiences I have sober, the easier it gets to do them again without drinking. I think my sober muscles are getting stronger.

I am finally starting to sleep better and therefore am beginning to have that smile on my face when I wake up in the morning. Every time I try to moderate and then stop again, the time it takes for this to happen increases. It used to be a couple weeks, then a month, this time nearly 6 weeks. I was worried it wouldn't return, but I am starting to feel it.

I have lost 7 pounds :).  Always an added bonus.

Struggles - Actually none right now! I really am perfectly at peace with not drinking - no cravings at all.  Of course I am a little concerned about having cravings as the weather warms up.  Over my my different long term sobriety attempts, the spring months (and summer) are definitely the most difficult for me.  I have not been sober during the entire month of May (except when pregnant) for 33 years.  I guess this is the year. I have to experience that first May sober (as hard as it may be) just to know that I can.

3 comments:

  1. Congratulations on making it week 6!! Awesome! I know how hard it is to restart - but you are making your past successes work for you - and so they should!

    please keep posting - i am trying to restart myself and i appreciate the insight.

    many thanks!

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  2. That’s fabulous. Enjoy the hangover free morning. They are my favourite!

    Anne

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  3. Love reading this! Glad sleep is better!
    xo
    Wendy

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